Turning 25 & General Life Struggles

Hi Friends!

I thought I’d finally write another normal blog rather than flooding you with Rescue Mumma stuff constantly. I’m sorry, I know it’s probably a tad annoying, but I am just so proud of my new little business and the concept behind it, I just really want it to do well. I’m going to be incredibly honest and vulnerable here, but it’s starting off a lot slower than I had hoped. Sales aren’t great and I have had a few little nervous breakdowns over whether jumping into a business was a good idea or not, but I am positive that this is worth sticking with and working hard on. Helping Mums is something I am so passionate about and as someone who has often struggled with Motherhood, I just really wanted a way for Mums to feel special and do something for themselves for a change. I’m sure it will pick up, but if I’m totally honest, this past week has been rough…

On Saturday, I turned 25! Twenty-five! That seems crazy to me. I am now in my mid-twenties and honestly, I never had any long term goals when I was younger but I kind of thought I’d be doing better in life by now. Don’t get me wrong, I am super blessed to have an amazing husband and son, we are finally back on track money-wise and I am generally happy with how things are going, but this year has been tough. I feel like I’ve had a quarter life crisis all year. I don’t really know what I’m doing or where I’m going with life. I like my job, however due to daycare fees changing, I am now literally working just to pay for daycare and I don’t really know if its worth it. My job now carries a lot more stress than it originally did when I started back in January and I’m not sure whether all of that stress and hard work is worth it if I’m not actually making any money. But on the other hand, Hunter needs to go to daycare. Being a very shy, only child, it is incredibly important that he socializes and attends daycare so that the transition into school and Kindy is easier. I really want this business to do well as I finally feel like I’ve found what I’m meant to do with my life, but at the same time because it hasn’t taken off like I originally had hoped, I’m constantly second guessing myself.

I think a lot of it comes back to the fact that I always thought I would have more children. That was in my original “plan” and I never really thought any further than that. Which is of course my own fault, I probably should have set more goals for myself, but I’m such an indecisive person that I always change my mind with what I want in life. Now that we aren’t having any more children, I’m left to decide a career path that is both rewarding/enjoyable and brings in an income.

Honestly though, other than my little career – quarter – life – crisis, everything is going really well. Jamie and I are happier in our marriage than we’ve ever been (our 4 year wedding anniversary was last Thursday! 4 whole years!) and Hunter is such a wonderful little man, I truly do feel so blessed. I guess I just feel lost. I’m not depressed or sad, I’m just…. very lost.

I think it’s important to remind ourselves when we feel like this that you could have a successful career, a beautiful family and all of the money you could ever want and need and you could still be unhappy. What I’m saying is, try your best to remind yourself of everything you are grateful for. I am guilty of always thinking of the negatives in my life instead of focusing on the positives and honestly it is a horrible way to live. Try your best to seek the positive in every day (kids are great at this so ask them what made them happy today, they often remind you to enjoy the little things) and seek out/accept help if you need it. Talk to people and allow yourself to have your sad moments, but try not to dwell on them.

As always, if you ever need anyone to talk to, I’m here. Feel free to message me any time.

Lots of love,

Kimberly xo

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Launch Day Is Here!

Hello Friends!

I can’t believe this day has finally come! I’m beyond excited to announce that our Rescue Mumma website is LIVE!

www.rescuemumma.com.au

I want to keep this post short and sweet seeing as I already posted about it recently. In case you missed it, here is the blog where I announced Rescue Mumma and explained all about how it originated etc.

If you’d like a discount code to use on your first purchase with Rescue Mumma, keep scrolling…

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For 5% off your first purchase with www.rescuemumma.com.au use the code LAUNCH5.

Thank you so much for your support! I can’t wait to hear what you all think!

Love,

Kimberly XO

HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT!

Hello friends!

Sorry I have been so absent the past few weeks, life has been super hectic and you’re all about to find out why!

I have been working on this for the past month every spare chance I get. Other than work and the usual housework, this is all I have been doing.

I came up with this idea over four years ago when I was pregnant with Hunter, but I’ve always been too scared to go ahead with it. But lately I’ve decided that I’m never going to get anywhere if I don’t take risks and do things that I’m passionate about.

So here is what I’ve been working on….

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What is Rescue Mumma? Rescue Mumma is a monthly subscription box designed specifically for Mums and women. It is a completely original idea and it’s also the very first of its kind in Australia! What sets Rescue Mumma boxes apart from other parenting boxes on the market is the fact that these boxes are created specifically to pamper Mums. None of the products contained in the box are for children, they are all just for Mum. You don’t need to be a Mum to enjoy these boxes either, the boxes are suited for all women aged 16 to 100 years old. Each box contains 5 – 7 luxury pamper products ranging from body scrubs to delicious fudge. We will also be stocking 2 one off gift boxes, one for New Mummas and one for Breastfeeding Mummas – both of these gift boxes are also the first of their kind in Australia! I’ve worked super hard to ensure all of the boxes we sell are affordable, whilst still containing luxury products. The other difference with the Rescue Mumma boxes is that we only work with small Australian businesses! 90% of the companies featured in the Rescue Mumma boxes are owned and run by Aussie Mums and most of the products are hand made and natural.

We are launching on the 20th September 2017 and the first box will go out on the 15th October. Boxes ship on the 15th of every month and will arrive within 5 – 7 business days. We also have flat-rate shipping Australia wide!

The website is currently live, however you will be directed to a coming soon page where you can enter your email address to be notified as soon as the boxes go on sale.

The idea behind this box really came to fruition when one of my friends had a baby. She was having a bit of a tough time so I brought her over a small gift just for her and she was so thankful and grateful that someone had thought of her and not just of bub. Most of the time when you have a new baby, everyone buys gifts for the baby – which is obviously very thoughtful and generous – but a lot of the time people forget about Mum. As Mums we also often forget or feel guilty buying things for ourselves. This is where Rescue Mumma comes in. Every month’s box is a surprise, so it’s like Christmas every month! The subscription boxes are $34.95/month + Shipping which, if you spread it out over the month, works out to be the price of a large cup of coffee a week. Each box also has a value of over $52 – which means every single month you are basically receiving over $17 worth of product for free! Our boxes also include exclusive discounts to some of the participating stores of that month’s box, just for our Rescue Mumma subscribers!

If you’d like to be notified when our boxes go live, head to www.rescuemumma.com.au and enter your email address – we’ll only be stocking a limited amount of boxes for our first month so make sure you sign up if you don’t want to miss out! While you’re there, be sure to click our social media links and follow us! We’ll be showing some exclusive sneak peeks on our Instagram and Facebook over the coming weeks.

Something else I wanted to include with the boxes, is a charity donation. I’d love to donate $1 from every box sold to a charity that benefits women and mothers, however I’m just not sure which one. So I would absolutely love some suggestions! If you have any in mind, please leave a comment below or on my social media.

So this is my big announcement! What do you think? What would you love to see in our subscription boxes?

Thank you for your support! I’ll write up another blog post on launch day which will include a special discount for my followers, so keep your eye out on the 20th September!

Love,

Kimberly Xo

 

Are we going to have another baby?

Hi friends!

Sorry about the lack of blog posts last week, life has been super hectic these past 2 weeks! As I’m typing this, I’m struggling to keep my eyes open and it’s only 6.30pm – so please forgive any spelling errors etc. I thought I would finally update on our TTC plans seeing as I haven’t talked about it since around this time last year.

If you followed my pregnancy journey with Hunter, you will know it was difficult to get pregnant and then it was difficult to stay pregnant. At 20 weeks I was diagnosed with an incompetent cervix and had to have emergency surgery at 21 weeks to place a cerclage. Long story short, Hunter was born at just 33+6 weeks and spent 3 weeks in the NICU/SCN.

Fast forward to this time last year when we decided we were ready to have another baby. By this point I had done just about all the research I possibly could on an incompetent cervix and the options for a future pregnancy. My best option looked to be a TAC which is a Trans-abdominal Cerclage which is placed before you get pregnant – via a laparoscopy. So we went and saw a specialist Doctor in Brisbane to discuss my options. Long story short, I had an MRI and an internal and the doctor said my cervix was measuring 2.5cm which is half the length it should be when you aren’t pregnant. It is also far shorter than is safe during pregnancy. I would have absolutely no chance of carrying a pregnancy to term with my cervix that short and would struggle to even make it to viability, let alone to 28 weeks where bub would actually have a decent chance at life. So my only option would be to have the TAC placed. We went ahead and booked the surgery in for the following month, however, about 2 weeks before the surgery I called my doctor just to make sure this was the right decision – and he expressed his concerns of me living rurally during pregnancy and explained that he would constantly feel nervous during any pregnancy I have whilst I live here as we don’t have the best health care services locally (the closest hospital that can deliver premmie babies is 2 hours away and even then they don’t deliver before 32 weeks) and urged me to have money put aside in case I had to move into a city again. Due to this we decided to cancel the surgery until we had at least $10,000 saved up just for that.

About 8 months ago, Jamie and I looked into surrogacy – as I have so many issues falling pregnant and during pregnancy, we thought we’d explore all of our options. However, we came to discover how difficult and expensive it is to have a baby via surrogacy in Australia. Medicare does not cover any of the associated costs (IVF etc) and including legal fees and medical bills, we would need to have between 60k-100k put away for it. After a lot of discussions, we decided that seeing as we already have one amazing little man, it would be selfish and wasteful to spend that amount of money trying to have another baby – with no guarentee of it actually working.

So after a lot of conversations and thinking about what we want, we have decided not to have any more children. Now, if we have a “whoopsie” then obviously we will have another baby or if we miraculously win the lottery then we might consider surrogacy again. But in reality, its probably never going to happen for us. We are both content with our little family and I am focusing on my career and my studies for now.

I know that was super long-winded, but I wanted to explain how we came to our decision and the fact that there still is a very, very small chance that we may have another baby some day – but it’s not currently in our plans whatsoever.

If you’ve had complicated pregnancies, how do you feel about having more children? Or do you know someone who has been through surrogacy? I’d love to hear your thoughts!

Thanks for taking the time to read yet another long-winded blog! Your support is always appreciated.

I just wanted to sneak in here that I may have a super exciting announcement within the next few months. It’s all very new at the moment, however if everything goes to plan I will have something amazing to share with you all soon – so watch this space!

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Kimberly XO

Spring is Coming & Finding Inspiration!

Hi friends!

Can you believe we are already a week into August (seriously, where did the year go)?! Which means we are only a few short weeks away from Spring! I only realised this yesterday when Jamie came inside and told me our Mulberry tree is covered in green mulberries. I didn’t believe him so went out there last night with a torch and sure enough, we have mulberries! And not just a few, we have literally HUNDREDS growing!

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Our whole tree is covered in these beautiful little berries – there are far more here than what we will be able to eat so once they are ripe I’m going to try making jam for the first time. I always had Mulberry jam at my Grannie’s house when I was little and absolutely loved it. So if I manage to make some and it tastes decent, I’ll share the recipe on here.

If you grow any sort of fruit or vegetables I’d love to see photos! I really love having fruit trees – we only have our Mulberry tree (which we’ve only had for 2 years) and a kumquat tree which was here when we bought the house. It’s kind of a useless tree though, because kumquat’s are too sour to eat so the only thing you can do with them is make marmalade and no one in our house eats it – so we’ve just kept it for a shade tree for Shadow. Eventually I’d love to grow mandarins and oranges too. Oh and we also have a passionfruit vine that we planted in April – so far it isn’t growing overly well so fingers crossed it hangs in there and we get some decent fruit from it next year especially seeing how expensive passionfruit are these days.

So the other day I was listening to one of Jenna and Julien’s old podcasts (I like to listen to podcasts instead of music whenever I get ready for work in the mornings or when doing mundane tasks like the dishes etc.) and they were discussing who inspires them the most and it got me thinking. If you’ve read my recent blog posts, you will know that I have some pretty intense confidence and self-esteem issues and often what comes with that is envy and jealousy. I always found myself scrolling through Instagram and seeing people with seemingly perfect lives or with things I wish I had – whether that be bigger boobs, a fancier house or just seemed to be a perfect wife or parent – and I would find myself feeling extremely jealous and envious. Now, this isn’t something I like to admit because it sounds incredibly immature, but if you’ve ever dealt with confidence or self-esteem issues you will be able to relate. You always feel as though others have it better than you and a natural emotion that comes along with that is jealousy and often times – at least for me – resentment. I found myself having to unfollow some people because I would look at the photos and literally roll my eyes and scoff at them because they’re “perfectness” pissed me off so much. I think some of it comes down to the fact that I can’t stand fake people or people who portray their lives as perfect – I just don’t think it’s good for anyone’s self esteem – whether you have issues or not. The younger generation are basically growing up on Social media and frankly I personally believe that all of these “influencers” posting heavily photo-shopped pictures is a joke. No one has blurred, pore-less skin in real life, it provides teenagers with impossible to reach standards and puts more pressure on them to grow up before they need to. Anyway, as I was saying, Jenna and Julien were discussing who inspires them the most and it made me realize how much I have progressed in the past few months. I’ve unfollowed anyone who comes across as completely fake and have started following people who inspire me more. Instead of wishing I could keep my house clean like other mums, I got my shit together and deep cleaned my house. I can honestly say my house has never stayed this clean for this long. I can guarantee you it doesn’t look as nice as the houses of the bloggers I follow, but it is finally at a standard of cleanliness and tidiness that I’m happy with. Instead of feeling jealous of other’s achievements, I have chosen to change my way of thinking and be inspired by these people instead of wallowing in self-pity.

I had a really good think after listening to that podcast about who inspires me to be the best version of myself and I hope this blog encourages you to do the same. The biggest inspiration in my life has always been my Grannie. She is the most selfless, kind and caring person I have ever encountered. She made my childhood infinitely better by always providing a fun and loving environment for us on school holidays and has made my life as a mother so much better too. I often call her for advice, whether it be regarding parenting, cleaning, baking or just general life stuff, she always has great suggestions that I hadn’t thought of and always reminds me to give myself some grace when I’m being too hard on myself. I inherited my love of baking from my Grannie and her chocolate slice is still something I bake to this day. She is always incredibly patient, understanding and wise and I always hope that I will grow to become at least half as great of a person as she is. Anytime I ever decide to improve anything in my life, I always think of her – she is just one of those people who makes you a better person just by being in their presence. I feel incredibly lucky to have someone so wonderful to look up to.

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Grannie & Hunter reading together during a visit last year

Another person who inspires me is one of my best friends, Laura. She is one of the most chilled out, relaxed and funny people I’ve ever met. She inspires me to go with the flow more and just have fun – and she looks like a damn supermodel so she makes me want to actually put effort in and work out. I’m not quite there yet, but if I ever consider working out, it’s because of Laura haha. We share a lot of the same interests, which I’ve never really found in a friend before. The only problem we have is the fact that we both share a love of makeup so whenever I ask whether I should buy something or not, the answer is almost always yes – she’s a bad influence when it comes to that haha.

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Myself & Laura before a beach party earlier this year.

Of course the next 2 people who inspire me are my husband, Jamie and my son Hunter. They inspire me every single day to be a better wife and mother. Jamie inspires me to do more of what I love and Hunter inspires me to find the fun in every situation and to find the joy in the little things.

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Jamie & his mini me Hunter ❤

Last but not least, the last 2 people who inspire me are Jenna Marbles and Julien Solomita. Obviously, I don’t know them personally, but they have changed my life substantially. Whenever I feel stressed or anxious I watch one of Julien’s vlogs or Jenna’s ridiculously stupid and hilarious videos and I listen to their podcast religiously every single week. Jenna inspires me to be exactly who I am and not to be ashamed of being kind of weird – as long as you’re a kind person that’s all that matters. Julien inspires me to work for what I want in life and to follow my dreams. They both seem like genuinely kind and caring people and they both manage to always put a smile on my face. They are by far the coolest people on the internet. If by some miracle you haven’t heard of them or haven’t seen their content, you can find Jenna’s videos here and Julien’s videos here.

So that’s it for this incredibly long winded blog, I hope this encourages you to look for those who can inspire you and tell them what an inspiration they are to you!

Who are you inspired by? If there’s anyone you think I should follow, link them in the comments! I’m always looking for new inspiration.

As always, thanks for reading and if you ever need anything, feel free to send me a message – all of my social media is listed below. Have a great week everyone!

Love,

Kimberly Xo

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Life Update – July 2017

Hello friends!

(Guys this is a damn long one – get a snack, maybe even some kind of alcoholic beverage if that’s your thing (I’d suggest wine, but I don’t really want to suggest that you drink something that I think tastes like rotten grapes) because clearly I cannot stop rambling today –  when you’re using brackets inside of brackets you know it’s time for you to step away from the computer)

I thought I’d finally give you all a little life update seeing as it’s been quite a while since I’ve really filled you in on our life. I’m so sorry I’ve been so MIA lately on most of my social media accounts, to be honest I’ve just lost all motivation and inspiration when it comes to my blog and YouTube. Unfortunately, I’m one of those annoying people who replies to messages in my head and never actually physically replies and the same goes for my blog. I swear I’ve written a good 5 blogs in my head and then never actually get around to writing them and posting them, but hopefully I’ll get back to posting a little more regularly.

Life has been pretty crazy busy this year. I’ve been working longer hours recently and I’m also studying for a Diploma of Hospitality Management which takes up a lot of my time and energy. Add that to trying to be a decent Mum and wife and that’s pretty much all my time gone (and I still feel like I’m failing at that as well – I’ve even written a blog about it – which you can read here). Hunter is in daycare 2 days per week now, which is hard because I work both of those days, which doesn’t leave much time for me to get any study or housework done without him around. He was attending a different daycare 3 days per week, but as time went on he began to really dislike going and was completely miserable – so we moved him to a more family orientated daycare and he is much happier there and has even finally made a little friend – I honestly think he gets overwhelmed with lots of kids around – so going to a smaller daycare (there’s only about 5 – 8 kids depending on the day) is really helping him get over his shyness.

We recently bought a little mini quadbike, which Hunter absolutely loves – we have to ride it with him as it is a little bigger than it looked in the picture – but I’m quietly happy about it because it means I can ride it too without breaking it haha.

We also have a new family member called Nitro.

Nitro 15.07.17He’s just turned 10 weeks old and is a purebred blue American Staffy. He is too cute and has settled in SO well with our little family and other pets. I just took him to the Vet last week to get his 2nd vaccination and everyone was saying what a sweet boy he is. We really got lucky with Nitro, he’s such a gentle, cuddly and kind-natured dog.

Jamie and I have been doing really well too. I really feel like I fall in love with him more each and every day (sorry, I really should have put in a “prepare to roll your eyes and be grossed out by the mushiness disclaimer before I wrote that). It’s funny – people always said you will love your partner more once you see them with your kid/s and I always used to roll my eyes thinking “how could I love him any more than I do now” but it is SO true. I’m actually thinking of dedicating a blog to relationships and how to make them work when you have kids (because I just wrote a big spiel about it and ended up deleting it because this blog is so f*cking long already) . Marriage can be rocky sometimes and all relationships have their ups and downs – and considering how much Jamie and I have been through as a couple and separately I think it could be interesting for others to read about? I don’t know, let me know what you think in the comments below or on any of my social media accounts (all linked at the bottom of this post). We recently went to a friend’s 21st and it was the first time that we had a full night out together without worrying about Hunter in almost 6 months (thanks to Granma – Jamie’s Mum – for coming over and watching Hunter for us! ❤ ). I will admit I had pretty severe anxiety about going because – to be honest, I don’t really get out much – other than work and grocery shopping I am basically homebound most of the time, so this was tough for me. I ended up having a panic attack soon after we walked into the party and said happy birthday, but after some fresh air and a few tears I was fine and we had a wonderful night. I always find that when I have a panic attack and force myself to stay in the situation that’s causing the anxiety, I will end up crying and then the panic attack goes away. It doesn’t always work, but if I can be strong enough to ride out the panic attack and let it reach its peak – which is usually me crying – I end up being fine for the rest of the time. It doesn’t always work out that way, sometimes I have to leave the situation because I just don’t have the strength to push through, but when I do manage to stick it out, I always end up feeling so proud of myself. Anyway, side tracked yet again, here is a photo of Jamie and I from the party.

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(P.s how HOT is my husband?! Since January, he’s been working so hard in the gym and has managed to lose over 10kg!)

Alright, I think I’ve rambled on long enough – oh I actually just realized I didn’t address the one thing I/we get asked the most – “when are you having another baby?” and I feel kind of bad doing this, but you’ll have to wait for another blog to find out. Before you get excited, it’s not going to be an announcement of any sort (spoiler alert: I’m not pregnant). I just have too much to include when discussing the subject of TTC and more kids that it would make this blog far too long if I included it in here. But, hopefully I’ll be able to get my sh*t together and write an update about that for you soon.

If you managed to make it this far without skipping anything, we are now best internet friends and you’re stuck with me (totally kidding, but seriously, how the f*ck do you make new friends as an adult?). But thank you for reading and sticking around, even when I go MIA for months on end.

I hope you’re all doing well and if you aren’t, I hope things get better for you soon.

Sending lots of love and positive vibes,

Kimberly

Xo

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Feeling Like a Failure & Mum Guilt

Hi friends!

I know it’s been a long time since I wrote a blog, but I had a lot on my mind that I just wanted to vent – this blog is a bit all over the place, so please excuse that – it’s been a while!

So today’s blog is going to be a bit of a deeper one, so I hope that’s okay! I’ve been going through a lot of stuff emotionally and mentally lately and figured there is no way I am the only Mum who ever feels like this, so I thought I’d share some of what I’ve been going through in the hopes that I’ll help someone else who feels the same and even maybe gain a bit of support for myself too.

Lately, life has been very hectic and busy lately, good busy, but still busy can sometimes be stressful. Between work, study, trying to be a decent wife and Mum as well as the fact that Hunter was sick non-stop with colds/flus from March right through until about 3 weeks ago, my mental and emotional health started to slip a little –  actually lets be honest – a LOT. In the past 6 months of my life I’ve had at least 5 nervous breakdowns. I really wish I was exaggerating, but unfortunately I’m not. A lot of the time they stem from my anxiety (which if you were unaware – you probably are seeing as I’ve been too embarrassed and ashamed to admit it – stems from my emetophobia. I don’t really ever want to go into detail about this because I am honestly so ashamed that at almost 25 years old, I still struggle immensely with this phobia, but if you’d like to know about it, google it.) but more recently it stems from my fear of letting people down. I have always been someone who gives up on things far too easily. At the first sign of problems I usually run for the hills or pack it in and call it a day, so this year has been a real test for me. Financially, my job helps my family out substantially – I don’t earn much at all, but it covers most of our weekly groceries which is very helpful when you’re trying to budget and save money. But, not only that, I have never (and I really mean, never) loved a job as much as I love my current one. My managers and bosses are amazing and so easy to get along with and so are all of my colleagues. My position itself is amazing, I enjoy almost every single task I do and finally feel like a valued team member, so much so that I decided to make a career out of it. Now, being a Mum of an almost 3 year old and deciding you want to work towards a career is tough, but it is definitely do-able with a bit of discipline. I currently only work 2 days a week, however over the past few months my original role of Motel Receptionist has changed and I am now taking on a lot more work and stress than originally intended. My job absolutely isn’t stressful, however with Hunter getting sick so much lately, it’s meant I’ve had to take a lot of sick days – which obviously isn’t helpful to my workplace and my manager (very nicely) mentioned that I needed to get mine and Hunter’s health in order because they need me to be on board every week – as a lot of my tasks now can’t be completed without me. I have to be honest, I felt pretty defeated and like an absolute failure and the more I thought about it, the worse I felt. Hunter getting sick a lot isn’t really something I can change, he takes vitamin c, an immune booster and a probiotic daily and he’s in daycare, so I can’t do more than what I already am doing to prevent him from catching a cold. Lately, I’ve really struggled with the thought of failing and disappointing people – my self confidence is at an all time low (I’ll write about that in another blog) so this really hit me hard. I found myself getting anxious any time Hunter sneezed or coughed or if I felt unusually tired or had a tickle in my throat because I was so scared of needing to call in sick again. On top of all of that, my house constantly looks like a bomb has hit it and I’ve fallen way behind on my study, I go to bed every night feeling like an absolute failure as a wife, a Mum and as an employee. Every single day I feel Mum guilt – either about not spending enough time sitting and playing with Hunter or that I shouldn’t have gotten as cranky with him at some point in the day and it has become overwhelming lately. I constantly feel the need to be reassured by my husband that I’m not a terrible wife and that he isn’t going to leave me for someone younger, prettier, more organised and capable of actually getting pregnant and carrying a baby full term (yep, still clinging on to that – yet another blog coming your way in the near future). I feel like I have aged terribly this year and that I just downright look ugly – which is something I have never genuinely felt before. I have always been a self conscious person, but I’ve also always had a decent amount of confidence in my appearance and personality. I have even had times where I have considered leaving my husband purely because I don’t think I’m good enough – and recently had a horrible argument with him because of this (I won’t go into details of the argument out of respect for my husband and my marriage – Jamie isn’t an over-sharer like I am) – edit: I also want to quickly mention that our marriage genuinely is fantastic and we generally don’t argue much at all – didn’t want anyone thinking we aren’t happy or that we’re on the brink of divorce – not even close! I’m finding things tough because I don’t really have any close friends where I live any more and struggle to find new ones due to my anxiety and the fact that I really think I can be difficult to get along with sometimes – so I don’t have anyone to chill out and vent to anymore. Wow, I really didn’t plan on this becoming a poor me blog, I had actually planned on writing a blog about how we all feel like we’re failing sometimes and that’s okay because we’re all doing the best we can, but how can I give advice when I don’t even take it on board myself.

Anyway, I do want to say that I am getting back on track when it comes to study and my work (I’m actually managing the motel for 5 days soon!) – I guess I’m still struggling more than I thought emotionally and mentally. But, I am absolutely not depressed or ungrateful for my life – I don’t want anyone to think that. I’m just going through a bit of a rough patch at the moment – but I’ll get through it. I hope you’re all doing well and staying warm and if any of you ever need to talk, I’m always just a message away.

Kimberly Xo

What’s in Hunter’s Easter Basket? Easter Gift Ideas For Toddlers

Hello everyone!

So I was struggling to come up with ideas on what to give Hunter for Easter and then whilst I was out looking around at the shops yesterday I found some really great stuff for toddlers that was inexpensive but still fun. I thought I would share with you what Hunter is getting in his Easter basket this year (although his is all in a bag because I couldn’t find a basket).

Easter spread

This is what I came up with, I’ll list each item below and where I bought it. I can’t remember the exact prices of everything but most things were only $3 or $4, with the most expensive item being the Hey Duggee Magazine which was $7.95.

hey duggie

I purchased this Hey Duggee Activity book from my local Newsagency for $7.95 – which I didn’t think was too expensive seeing as it comes with some little toys as well. This book also has some cute little comic book style stories as well as a sheet of stickers.

dory colouring book

I purchased this Finding Dory colouring in/activity book from The Reject Shop for about $3. It also includes washable markers which is great considering somebody has a habit of “accidentally” drawing on the walls…

my first letters

I found this little My First Letters book at the Newsagency in the kids magazines section for about $4. I think it’s such a wonderful idea as each letter has a character attached to it (like E is for Elmo) – which I think will help keep Hunter interested whilst still learning letters.

Paper mates

Okay, I’m not going to lie, I bought this more for myself than for Hunter – seeing as he isn’t quite old enough for this kind of thing yet. But when I saw it, it brought back so many memories of making animals out of kits just like this with my Grannie when I was little and seeing as we are visiting my Grandparents and Parents this Easter, I couldn’t resist. This kit comes with everything you need to make cute little 3D cardboard animals, except for the glue. I found this at The Reject Shop for about $3-$4.

pooh bear easter

This very cute Winnie The Pooh Easter book was found tucked away in amongst a bunch of other Disney books at my local Newsagency. Hunter has been obsessed with “Pooh Bear” since he was a very little baby – his nursery was Winnie The Pooh themed and we had wall stickers up behind the rocking chair. When he started learning to smile, we noticed a lot of the time he wasn’t actually looking at me, he was looking past me at Pooh bear on his wall (to be honest I think he still prefers Pooh bear to me). So I thought this was very fitting. It was only $3-$4.

stickers

These were some stickers that caught Hunter’s eye at the Newsagency so I figured I’d get them for him. They’re really great for learning animal names too! They were around $2.

egg nest

That’s everything that’s going in his bag, however we are going to be doing an Easter egg hunt as well! This will be Hunter’s first year participating in Easter Egg hunts and I honestly can’t wait to see his reaction. I’m planning on downloading some Easter bunny footprint templates online and cutting them out to stick on the floor up the hallway, just to add that extra magic. We will be hiding some chocolate hollow eggs around the house for him to find, but seeing as he is still only 2 and a half – I don’t really want him having too much chocolate (and my Mum makes an amazing chocolate Easter cake which is covered in Easter eggs every year so there’s that too). But I also wanted to have it be a decent sized hunt – so I searched online for some plastic fillable Easter eggs. I got these from an online party store for about $5 and decided to go to The Reject Shop to find things to fill them with. Now – I do want to mention (and this is pretty obvious) that if you plan on doing this with toddlers, make sure you don’t purchase anything your toddler can choke on. I was really stuck for ideas as I am a bit paranoid when it comes to Hunter and small things, seeing as he still like to put things in his mouth (and up his nose…sigh), however just walking around the reject shop I found a few cute things to fill his eggs with.

egg prizes

Firstly, I found these bubbles that fit perfectly inside the eggs, they come with a little wand attached too. These are ones that you would have to watch your toddler with, as the cap does come off the bubbles and could be a choking hazard – however if you remove the cap for them, it would be fine. I also found mini tennis balls – these came in a pack of six and are all different colours. Now, the last thing I got was some hot wheels cars. These were a bit tricky, as I bought a few, but only 2 of them were small enough to fit inside the eggs, so maybe take an egg with you so you can judge the size. I also included some stickers in each egg and plan on putting a balloon in the ones that have the mini tennis balls. If you live in a warm area, water balloons would be great to pop in there as well.

So that is everything Hunter is getting for Easter this year. I normally wouldn’t have gotten this many things for him, however everything was so affordable – and it saves me taking activities from home to my Grandparents place to keep him occupied. I also wanted to keep up the tradition my grandparents started with me when I was little, we always got a few small, inexpensive gifts in our Easter bags/baskets and it made everything just that little more special.

What are you doing for your little ones this Easter? Let me know in the comments below!

Wishing you all a safe and Happy Easter!

Kimberly Xo

 

Chocolate Fudge Easter Cookies

Okay so I came across this recipe whilst searching for Easter themed treats on Pinterest and holy Easter batman, these are GOOD! But, also really not healthy. Like, at all. So keep that in mind. Now, I have changed the original recipe quite a bit which is why I thought I’d do a blog post rather than just posting a picture of the deliciousness on Facebook and linking the original recipe (don’t worry, I’ll link the original recipe below too!). Also, if you’re after a crispy, crunchy cookie this isn’t the recipe for you. These cookies are chewy at the edges and fudgey in the middle and have a similar texture to a brownie. These would also make a great gift, just package them up in some cellophane and tie off with a ribbon – I can guarantee they will be asking you for the recipe!

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So without further rambling, let’s get into it!

For this recipe you will need;

220g Baking chocolate – Now here’s where it gets a bit tricky, the original recipe calls for semi-sweet (dark) chocolate, but I didn’t quite have enough. So I mixed about 165g dark chocolate and about 55g milk chocolate melts. But you can do whatever you like really. Just remember that using all milk chocolate will result in a sweeter, less chocolatey cookie.

2 large eggs

5 tbsp. butter, softened

1/2 cup brown sugar

1/4 cup granulated (caster) sugar

1 1/4 cups all-purpose (plain) flour

1/4 cup cocoa powder

1 tsp baking powder

Pinch of salt

About 3/4 bag of Cadbury Easter Eggs (the candy coated ones)

Method

Preheat oven to 180 degrees Celsius or 350 degrees Fahrenheit and line 2 baking trays with baking or parchment paper.

Melt chocolate – you can do this in a double boiler (bring a pot of water to a simmer, place another bowl over the top, making sure it doesn’t touch the water and gently melt the chocolate, stirring occasionally. Make sure you don’t overheat it or get any water in it or it will seize!) or you can do this in the microwave, I’d suggest going with 30 second increments to begin with – stirring each time and then take it down to 10 seconds when the chocolate begins to melt. Allow to cool slightly.

In a separate bowl, cream together the butter and both sugars until combined and light and fluffy. Add in eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition.

Pour the egg and butter mixture into the melted chocolate and mix until fully combined. Add in your dry ingredients (I sifted mine in but you don’t have to, I just do it because my cocoa powder is always lumpy) and gently mix. Your batter should be very thick – but not dough like – more like thick brownie batter.

Scoop tablespoon sized cookies onto the tray, leaving a few centimeters in between each cookie to allow for expanding. Press 2 or 3 Easter Eggs into each cookie. Bake for 10 – 15 minutes, until the edges of the cookies are just set. The cookies will look doughy still, however they will set once out of the oven. Leave to set on the tray for 5 minutes, then transfer to a wire wrack to cool.

These cookies are very rich and decadent, but so delicious!

If you make these, I’d love to see them! Please tag me in your photos on Instagram @kimberlyrose_xo

If you eat them before you manage to take a photo – I’ve been guilty of that before! – please let me know what you thought!

Here is the original recipe: http://tastesbetterfromscratch.com/chocolate-cadbury-egg-cookies

Kimberly

Xo

 

 

Homemade “Perfect Playdough” Recipe – No Alum or Cream of TarTar 

Hello everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful long weekend! This past weekend was a rainy one so I wanted to find something fun we could do inside. I searched online for a playdough recipe and all of the required Alum or Cream of TarTar as we call it in Australia and of course I didn’t have any. There was no way I was dragging Hunter out in that miserable weather all for a ton of powder I will most likely never use again. So I searched and searched and finally found a recipe without it, but the comments said it didn’t work all that well. I decided to wing it and alter the amount of ingredients and it turned out perfectly! Just like the bought stuff except without the nasties. Here is my “Perfect Playdough” recipe! 

  
1 cup plain flour

1/4 cup salt

3 tsp lemon juice 

2 tablespoons vegetable oil

1/2 cup water

Food colouring

Pop it all in a pot over medium heat and cook until it’s play dough consistency. If adding different colours, separate the dough and knead the colours in. 
You could probably try 1 & 1/2 tablespoons of oil instead of 2 as it was a touch greasy but I prefer it like that as it doesn’t dry out as quickly. I also suggest dusting your bench with flour before kneading the colours into the dough. Oh and if you don’t want your hands looking like mine did, maybe put some gloves on!

  
Let me know how you go if you try this recipe out! I’d love to see pictures. Tag me on Instagram or Facebook, or feel free to send me a snap on Snapchat! All social media is listed below. Hope you all have a wonderful week! 

Kimberly Xo

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